I am a novice in the dispersed Order of Ecumenical Franciscans and I have 30 Chapters on various spiritual topics to complete. You can complete one a month but must go no faster than that. In November or December I came to a Chapter on fasting.
In November I did some research on the CRON eating plan, Calorie Reduction Optimal Nutrition and other plans that have a fasting aspect. My focus was on health and simplification of my lifestyle, it was not spiritually connected.
So, I have had this Fasting Chapter hanging over my head awhile now and I haven't been able to get into it. When I brought it up towards the end of my meeting with my spiritual director last week, she had a different take on it. She is totally independent of the Order which is why it is a requirement that I see her as well as communicate with my Formation Counselor.
Her take is that 'my sap is running', I have just switched my sons room into a guest room (one more bag of booze bottles found!) which has changed something in each room, I am truly occupying my home in new ways and looking at what my mission in an expanded way. She could put into words why fasting was not resonating with me, it made sense to her and she supports me deferring it for something else at this time.
WELL! I wrote my Formation Director who lives in Japan. It has been almost a week and I have had no feedback. Is this benign neglect or Monastic Mr Smarty-Pants? No matter . . .
Who is Louie? He is everybody's friend in local AA. He has been fighting cancer a long time and in a nursing home, going to stay there on Hospice services. I took my fifth step with him a month ago when I could see it wasn't going to work out with my sponsor. I saw him yesterday and was taken aback at his decline, jaundice setting in and further weight loss in the ten days since I had seen him last.
I think I will fast with Louie. I will take in a little nutrition as I want to continue walking at lunch and working as everyone does. I've been wanting to drop the coffee . . .
Thanks for listening, I knew you would be up!
That's what's good about today.
That Happy Feeling
20 hours ago
I am sad about Louie, sad for YOU, b/c I KNOW full well that attachments which can be made with recovery people we love, who have "been there for us.
ReplyDeleteAbout the "diet" thing...I can offer no comment--OTHER than I've added 40 pounds in 2013...and tomorrow (MONDAY) is day I have prepared to go on my fast. (Again!)
SO good to see you blogging.
St. Francis counselled gentleness with "Sister Donkey" our precious body. Fasting, feasting, both can be celebrations or sacrifices, dear.
ReplyDeleteBless you in all you do.
ALOHA from Honolulu
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