Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Here I Am

Thank you for your kind words. I trudge the road of Happy Destiny. Still sober and still wandering after Francis and Clare.

There has  been a dis-ease in my spirit since my anniversary in June.

Usually when we get jammed up we know it's source. It has something to do with what the brother in law said or a cancelled vacation. There has been an affront to my sense of 'how it should be'. There is a story behind the internal tension.

This time around there is no story. None that I believe anyhow. What I choose to believe is that God is re calibrating me. I feel an internal wrenching that has no name. It has spontaneous weeping. It has a shift to quietness, a retracting from contact. It is powerful in nature. Such that I am moved to revere Step Three. I turn my life and my will over to God as I know not what to do.

That's what's good about today.