Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Here I Am

Thank you for your kind words. I trudge the road of Happy Destiny. Still sober and still wandering after Francis and Clare.

There has  been a dis-ease in my spirit since my anniversary in June.

Usually when we get jammed up we know it's source. It has something to do with what the brother in law said or a cancelled vacation. There has been an affront to my sense of 'how it should be'. There is a story behind the internal tension.

This time around there is no story. None that I believe anyhow. What I choose to believe is that God is re calibrating me. I feel an internal wrenching that has no name. It has spontaneous weeping. It has a shift to quietness, a retracting from contact. It is powerful in nature. Such that I am moved to revere Step Three. I turn my life and my will over to God as I know not what to do.

That's what's good about today.


  1. Your article is very helpful thank you very much for sharing .

  2. Carol, thanks for visiting my 4th dimension..."NICE" SURPRISE!

    Maybe it is age (81) but I've been "letting go" of SO MANY things the past few years, w/o seeming disturbance. I believe this a point for which long-timers used to say, "It just keeps getting better and better."

    I "feel" you as being right there also (NOT in age!) where practicing patience and tolerance, and happily realizing that "God IS in charge" is becoming a part of the real YOU! It is really SO simple--and becomes ever so more easy.

    Carol, I SO agree with you, the solution is in Step Three. I don't know if you are sponsoring anyone, but THEREIN is another "best" solution. I have been sponsoring several lately, and how OH HOW true it is that I cannot feel sorry for me when I'm working with another. What fun! What Wonder of Wonders!

    Comment IS too long, but I just felt like "talking" with you.
    P.S. Is your father living still? Is he getting along OK? If you are on FaceBook I am
    facebook.com/fiddlemn (Lemme know!)

  3. Oh Carol, I do not know why I asked about your father, my head was just "out of order" for a minute. Apologize!!!

  4. What terrific writing! I love the idea of God recalibrating. Thanks for your post!