Another great day to be experienced. I'm still mulling around the fairness/justice idea by starting with how I treat myself and expanding to others.
Yesterday started with shoveling to get out of the driveway, transitioned to waiting on Rt 150 to get winched out of a snowbank (no damage done to me or anyone else) and than frantically working to finish my work by 6pm.
By my last hour of work I was getting crazy because a loudmouth 2 offices away was letting off steam about her schedule, how she was being cheated, etc. I had shut my door but her dulcet tones persisted. In the past I have smiled & shut their door but yesterday I didn't go any further with it because I was favoring murder at that point. Now, Monday morning quarterback, I could have gone and asked to shut HER door to 'give her some privacy'.
At some point during the day I was building resentment which turned into poison. At what point could I have made choices that treated myself more fairly?
There are no hard and fast answers to that one but my pattern is to do a slow burn that shoots flames in the direction of least resistance. What's good about today is getting another chance to do it differently.
Oh yeah, I've changed from an Aquarius to a Capricorn. You know, Jesus was a . . . oh never mind!
That Happy Feeling
21 hours ago
Your post is FUN-NY...simply because we are ALL just like you, well at least I am--in regard to learning to deal with relationships. Be they at work, home, school, meetings(Ho-ho!), always when I believe I've got a handle on it, OUT jumps the 'judgment' devil, resentment, anger, fear, or whatever.
ReplyDeletePssst! I am Gemini. Wasn't Jesus born in...oh, forget it!
glad to know I'm not the only one... ;-) All things considered I think you did ok! It certainly could've been worse. And yes, there's always room for improvement. It seems like I cannot entirely eliminate my temper, but there are times when I can insert a bit of good will into the reaction time and prevent a real meltdown lol. God Bless! I can so relate!
ReplyDeleteI think that shutting your door was a great idea. No sense trying to control the melt down of another. I have to laugh about the zodiac changes. I like becoming a Sagittarius.
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