Here I Am

Unbelievably, I am sitting in front of my new Dell Slim Tower computer, actually blogging at home. All seems okay so far, I have confidence that this baby will hum, perform and last.

I'm so finding it unreal that I am having a problem finding something to say.

Yes, I live in the Northeast. And yes, I went to a matinee performance today, the show must go on. It played to a half empty hall but so be it.

I have been putting pressure on myself to sound more 'writerly' since I've resumed the blog since the writing contest is finished. Pressure doesn't work with me.

It occurred to me as I was womaning a snow shovel that I am no longer afraid. I'm right sized and ready to hit my knees as ever. But, in terms of facing human problems, I'm not afraid. I meet them face to face and don't awfulize stuff because I know that I'm not in charge. My job is to show up, pay attention, do my best and not get caught up in the outcome. I can let things be.

And that's what's good about today. Acceptance.