I can't think mean thoughts and keep my equanimity. We learn on a page in an Alanon reader that the word sarcasm derives from the Greek 'sarkos', meaning tearing of flesh. I have an awareness, and so, a degree of self control over that.
Someone mentioned that they are a cynic. So, am I. It allows me to feel very smart and world-wise, it feeds my ego like crazy and it's also a pretty negative attitude. By it's judging nature, it takes me into a one up-manship with others. This takes me out of being right sized. In the moment it means nothing, but internally my soft parts know that I am in disarray, my behavior has not matched my truer, more powerful belief system and parts of me are protesting.
Now that I'm aware of it, I can work on acceptance of it in myself and take the action of praying for it's removal from me.
Yippee, that was easy! What's good about today is going to a daily meeting to get reinforcement for my emotional sobriety.
That Happy Feeling
21 hours ago
tis good to be aware of the things we'd like to change in ourselves... for so long, I thought I was fine and ok, and everyone else has issues. It turns out I was quite wrong. Today knowing what I know about me, thanks to a good 4th and 5 steps, I can work on me with HP in 6 and 7.
ReplyDeleteCarol, this from Mr Sarcasm (me). OMG, "Tearing of flesh". And isn't it the TRUTH? Why do I get to be 77 years of age before being "asked" to change lifelong habits?
ReplyDeleteSarcasm, Judmentalism, Superiorism, and many others--bloggers do not need to know ALL, even though they probably do anyway.
All I can say more is Thank YOU for another perfectly-timed reminder. That one about the daily meeting...I guess that is what is saving my life.
PEACE to us all!
I am not a fan of sarcasm, although I have used it to wound others. I am working to be more aware at how my words can wound just as deeply as my actions.
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