In the last few months I have read less and less from the Alanon daily readers and more from one by Melody Beattie entitled The Language of Letting Go. I'm not a huge Beattie fan but when she 'hits it right, she really nails it' so I keep hanging on for those moments. The reader came into my hands from another program member, I really love it when that happens.
Anyway, the theme of today's reading is to put martydom aside and enjoy the day. We can go through the day making ourselves feel depressed, anxious and deprived. One of the most valuable things that I heard in Alanon was that I could start my day over any time that I wanted. In the beginning of my recovery it meant that I needed to take the focus off what the alcoholic was doing and put it on myself and my choices.
Nowadays (won't make it past spellcheck!) I don't have an addict to blame but I can sure turn my beedy eye on co-workers. I notice that I can expect strange God-like perfection from bosses, I can expect them to be the perfect parent and the perfect role model. Of course they are human, no more or less than the rest of us in a higher powered world.
And so it falls back on me to make it a good day for myself. And with practice and prayer, I can.
And that is what is good about today.
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