Wednesday, August 26, 2009

I AM sober, not in jail or hospital

(see DdAAve comment yesterday) and have a host of other things for which I am grateful. I make a point to tell people that I appreciate them and do service inside/outside the program with a willing heart. I'm blessed with belief in a higher power and the companion ship (I like that misspelling) of others. Even before program I felt ashamed when falling into a slump because I have so much to be grateful for.

Part of my confusing funk is that I haven't been able to name it. Other than curtailing my reading, there hasn't been any change in my life. Only one crying spell today. My phone buddy, and this is why I love her, thinks it is a sign of wisdom that my distress has no story attached to it. It certainly is a power greater than myself and calls the shots.

Too many uses of the word 'I' so will finish up. An old psych axiom is to beware of the patient who gets well too fast. What's good about today is that I can take my time.


  1. Sometimes I just have days or weeks like that and there really is no explanation for them. At time I can look back and see that something inside of me changed, but other times it just was what it was.

  2. I am sober, not in jail or hospital too.

  3. Sometimes I feel down too and can't put a finger on it. I assume it's just the way I'm built. I can't ALWAYS be up.
    But if I've learned nothing else in recovery , it's that This Too Shall Pass.

  4. It sounds good to me. When I get out of my head and appreciate others and do service work, I do much better. If I isolate, then I go down quickly.

  5. I'm taking my time in Recovery's been a few steps; stall; or a few steps; and a back step.. and forward again.

  6. These days, when I fall into a funk, that is what I name it: FUNK!

    After that I just allow God to take down whatever resistance I have or barriers I have erected to keep myself from knowing what the truth is as to the causes. He does reveal it to me. Then I ask Him to help me take appropriate action.

    God bless,

  7. "beware of the patient who gets well too fast"