A program friend and I were laughing one night on the way home from a meeting. We agreed that we pray for God's Will but that we would like that it not to entail any embarrassment, financial difficulty, disfigurement . . . well you get the point. We did not want to move or change jobs either. Not exactly a picture of surrender. At least we could recognize it and laugh at ourselves.
Personally, my history is to turn my will into God's Will. I have not always been able to tell the difference and I still am suspicious of my motives when I'm moved to do something out of the ordinary.
I have a tendency to leave things behind when they get difficult but there have been times when I stayed beyond the need to do so. What is TOO long or NOT long enough? Am I back to my co-dependent issue of needing approval when I do something? There is that issue of comparing myself to others. I will never get the reassurance I need outside of a relationship with my higher power.
What's good about today is that when my head gets too busy I know it is time to surrender my best thinking.
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