I cannot take care of others and assert my needs at the same time. (Copied down in one of my Alanon readers, a guy named Joe used to say it all the time)
Our work 'numbers' are down and my company is all over us with needs to be met. I come home and my son is full of the need for a car. I understand that work and children want things badly. I identify with them. There's nothing wrong with it and I would love to help them. I would love to satisfy them. My ego urges me to jump high to meet that need. My company, my son, I am bonded to them and honestly want them to do well. It is their nature to turn to me in need. They are doing what they do.
I was unnerved in both situations today and briefly I felt bad about myself. But once I left them, my equanimity returned. That stuff is just stuff. I am in the present and all is good. Trust God.
8 hours ago