You really warm my heart with your comments and encouragement.
I keep writing and re-writing this post, adding paragraphs of details, deleting them out. It's about my dwindling participation in Alanon. I started in 2001 due to a relationship that has now been over for 6 years. The magic of 12 step kept me coming and I was blessed to find CoDA.
That's about it. I need not justify, minimize or rationalize my story. What's good about today is that (an Alanon reader, Courage to Change, page 152, quote from Wendell Berry) "the world cannot be discovered by a journey of miles . . . only by a spiritual journey . . . by which we arrive at the ground at our feet, and learn to be at home.'
And another quote that I like . . . doubt is a part of every spiritual journey.
8 hours ago