Someones share this morning mentioned 'second guessing' and I realize that I can add that to my 4th Step inventory. Doubting myself puts my mind in relentless spin mode, there is no end to it. I would not subject another person to the automatic harangue that I put myself through. It is another way to beat myself up and I won't permit it anymore.
What is good about today is that I won't accept unacceptable behavior from myself. I expect that I won't be as exhausted from the constant micro-management that I have put myself through.
That Happy Feeling
20 hours ago
Doubting myself is a biggie with me! I know what I know, but somehow I will start to doubt myself and then I can't stop the gears in my head from turning. Great post, thank you for the reminder.
ReplyDeleteYeah, Carol! Your blog illustrates perfectly (for me) why I needed--and still need--adult supervision, when working these steps. Means a sponsor, of course! One person to whom I can tell everything, and receive an unbiased, experienced opinion on how to procede.
ReplyDeleteI know you have a sponsor. Great! MY problem was not having a sponsor...it was USING that sponsor, talking to him f2f ona regular basis.
It is with pleasure I read of your growth in this program. Stay! It will pay HUGE dividends, probably already does.
Peace
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Micro managing every emotion and event in my life was so exhausting. Letting go and letting God was a wonderful experience.
ReplyDeleteI'm kind of surprised when people make the statement that 'you've grown a lot' when I've only been blogging for 2 mos but have been 'at this' recovery for 8 years. But I still value the feedback.
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