Saturday, June 13, 2009

Second Guessing Myself

Someones share this morning mentioned 'second guessing' and I realize that I can add that to my 4th Step inventory. Doubting myself puts my mind in relentless spin mode, there is no end to it. I would not subject another person to the automatic harangue that I put myself through. It is another way to beat myself up and I won't permit it anymore.

What is good about today is that I won't accept unacceptable behavior from myself. I expect that I won't be as exhausted from the constant micro-management that I have put myself through.


  1. Doubting myself is a biggie with me! I know what I know, but somehow I will start to doubt myself and then I can't stop the gears in my head from turning. Great post, thank you for the reminder.

  2. Yeah, Carol! Your blog illustrates perfectly (for me) why I needed--and still need--adult supervision, when working these steps. Means a sponsor, of course! One person to whom I can tell everything, and receive an unbiased, experienced opinion on how to procede.

    I know you have a sponsor. Great! MY problem was not having a was USING that sponsor, talking to him f2f ona regular basis.

    It is with pleasure I read of your growth in this program. Stay! It will pay HUGE dividends, probably already does.

  3. Micro managing every emotion and event in my life was so exhausting. Letting go and letting God was a wonderful experience.

  4. I'm kind of surprised when people make the statement that 'you've grown a lot' when I've only been blogging for 2 mos but have been 'at this' recovery for 8 years. But I still value the feedback.